October 19, 2008 our lives changed in a way we never thought would happen to our family. The entire night before Kingstons birth was a battle from every force, it seemed that nothing was going right. Kingston's mother had the most intense labor I have ever witnessed and yet the doctors wouldn't believe she was in labor at all. After about 8 hours, we were able to have a doctor stop for just a few minutes and watch the intensity of what she was going through. The doctor responded immediately and started to take action. He never left her for the rest of the labor, something was terribly wrong. The pain meds were given and more and more. Quoting the doctor, "we've given her enough to put down a horse". They finally agreed to get the anaesthesiologist involved, she was a feisty thing. This doctor came in with barking out orders and nurses were jumping. She turned to me and said, "I will get the pain in control soon for her, I promise." The first time that night my heart had hope. She gave her enough medicine to let her finally fall asleep for just a few minutes while they prepared for the emergency C-section that was going to take place. For just a few minutes, I sat all alone in the rocking chair with my baby girl hanging onto life trying to give life, I needed comfort. I started to pray almost out loud. I knew that whatever the Lord will was I would have to accept that, I have enough faith and knowledge in the plan of salvation that I knew there are worst things in life than death. When my father was saying his goodbyes to all of our family, he promised that he would always be near us. That iff we were living righteously he would do everything he possibly could on his side to let us know he was there. Well, I needed to know he was there. I said out loud, dad you promised! It was that quick that a calmness wrapped around me and I knew that the Holy Ghost was surrounding me but I also knew that my father was in that very room, wrapping his love around both my daughter and around me. It was during this moment that the feisty anaesthesiologist walked back into the room, she came to an immediate stop (almost as if there was a solid wall in front of her). Our eyes locked and I know she knew she was experiencing a true moment of comfort.
I sat alone in the empty room waiting to hear anything about my daughter and my new grandson. The announcement came across the entire hospital, "Code pink, Yonkers C-6" I knew it was Kingston. I watched as medical staff dropped everything and ran but I still was comforted. It seemed like forever before we the news came that our little man was here but was in intensive condition, there seems to be more to the problems than just a cleft palate and cleft lip that we were prepared for from early on. We were told to prepare ourselves because his appearance was obvious that he wasn't normal. I walked in to his small intensive care room with about 6 other medical team members there working on him and I was in love! There in my midst was a gift from God. I knew at that moment life would be changed forever for our family. It was going to be hard! It was going to be a lot of tears, no sleep, doctor appointments, no sleep and so many more issues that we could not ever comprehend.
It has been over 2 years since that date. I'm not the one that always loses sleep, it's my daughter. I'm not the one that goes to every appointment (sometimes up to 10 a week), it's my daughter. I'm not the one that has the decisions of major importance that can influence Kingston life in one way or another, it's my daughter. My daughter is amazing! She didn't ask for this, she didn't pray for this, she never dreamed of this but this life is what has been given to her to care for and watch over. Kingston was given to my daughter and our family as a gift! I can't imagine our life without him.
His presence has changed our course in everything.
Through this blog, my hope is to share the trails, the tears, the joys, the accomplishments and the love that comes from little Kingston Maddox Vanderkallen.
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